Faith and Trust

I learned something very important at church this morning.

My pastor was talking about life and sin. Basically, he was explaining that there are different types of sin - past, present and continuous. Anyways, with the continuous sin, he said that we need to confess and pray (James 5:16). Then he finished with something interesting. He said "even if you don't believe you can heal, some one else's faith will get you through it." I felt like he was talking to me. I don't think I can heal from many things, and I don't have faith that I can either. I have given up on changing and have started to doubt anything and everything religious at all.

To put it one way, I have no faith. I also have very little trust. I have no trust here in Charleston, and very little elsewhere. I want to have faith more than anything, but there is something in me that will not let me move on. I cannot move from this position.

The other thing that my pastor said that really struck me is that "the reality we live in values and validates sin". I had never really thought of it that way. There is so much that our society values, that I value, that I shouldn't even think twice about or obsess about. Things like TV and video games fall under that for me. I haven't moved all weekend from my couch other than to go to church this morning. I mean, I played a whole video game and started a second this weekend. I also watched a ton of random TV. I've done this when I could have been outside spending time in nature, reading my Bible or hanging out with people. But I have chosen to stay home and rot my brain doing this stuff. None of the games I've played or TV shows I've watched this weekend actually have anything valuable in them.